Waking up in someone else’s dream August 23, 2008

Me circa 2008… I

I mentioned once that I went to 9 schools in my school days. I figured out once that I had 52 different teachers (some I had multiple years) and who knows how many substitute teachers. I divided my life between the midwest and NorCal and at times spent summers in Michigan. Its funny, I love having my home and knowing where that is, but here lately I find myself longing for California or Michigan- a change of scenery. However I know as soon as I got there I would be longing for rednecks, mud runs, and my wonderful home where my heart definitely stays. I was inspired to think on these things by The Cheek of God here.

Its amazing what a life of different places can give you in this world. I often consider this, because I have two sets of friends for a long time- California and Missouri- and now I have all of you. Its sometimes difficult, as he relates, to try and explain the different groups to each other, but its not a bad thing. My friends in California knew me in my formative years when I was young and shy and cared what everyone else thought of me. My friends in Missouri knew me as I began to grow up and decided what everyone else thought was a bunch of crap and I was going to live my life my way. And now, you all get to watch me grow into my true self.

I don’t plan to ever fully grow up, but I am becoming my own person away from my parents. I have a new name, a new life, a new husband. (and I’m a new wife… sorry couldn’t resist that rhyme scheme) I am reinventing myself and becoming able to ignore all the things I was for everyone else and just be who I am for me. For better or worse, I am. My dad once quoted a Faith Hill song about me in a sermon in church of all places. “Daddy’s little girl, Mama’s little angel, Teacher’s pet, and pagent queen (well never that) All my life I’ve been pleasing everyone but me. Waking up in someone else’s dream.” I don’t remember exactly what the moral was altho he went on to mention that for the little bit of a person I was, I dreamed big. No one would ever guess from looking at me that I played the baritone horn or had a voice that could belt like mine did when the need arose. But I still hid behind the guise of everyone’s little darling.

Well now its finally my time to shine. I’m living my own dream here folks and you guys have ring side seats. It may get a bit sloppy and nostalgic from time to time and I’m not always grammaticly or politicly correct, but here I am world.

Me circa 2004

Things that make me smile August 23, 2008

Someone found my blog by looking up “pee on” Well yes there is a post here about the time I got stung by a jellyfish and my sister in law said “Just let him pee on your leg- that will make it feel better.” Oddly enough this is not the first time someone has found me by looking up something about peeing on someone’s leg.

The song the Hampster Dance. When I was about 12 or so and the internet at home was still a relative novelty my dad called me into his office one night “Melissa c’mere you gotta see this” and there on the screen were dozens of dancing hampsters and my dad was smiling like a little kid. How can that not be a happy memory?

My dogs especially Pepper are sweet and crazy funny animals. Pepper has this look I call the “Hush Puppy” look because her lips curl up on her teeth when she closes her mouth so that she looks like the puppet from Lambchops Playalong. I don’t have a picture because she only does it when I don’t have a camera on me. She along with Tinkerbell, Lily, Pugsly, and Missy are the current doggie owners of my heart.

Pepper my sweet dog- about a 4 month old picture so she

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My husband. He just makes me smile in general. Last night he went to bed before I could get the clean sheets on the bed and was a bit disgruntled when I woke him up to put them on until he felt the new 400 thread count sateen cotton sheet that was under him. He was a much less grumpy bear after that and I had to laugh at him because sometimes you just do.

My inlaws current laundry set up.

Warm weather washer

Its amazing how sometimes you don’t miss it till its gone. In this case its a washer. Ours was out for a long time and we finally got it back as my inlaws started a remodel thats been in the works and needed for 4 years now. My MIL needed to do laundry and laundry for 6 is hard to do at a laundry mat so this was their solution and it made me grin. See their house is like a 400 thousand plus dollar home and this is like the icing on the cake. She and I laughed about how it made us feel like we were back in Mexico where if they have electric washers, they go outside. Or at least they do in the small town we were in. And forget about electric OR gas dryers.

Having a washer again. Nuff said, right?

My fishies. I can watch them for great lengths of time because they are just so soothing and sweet. Seriously. My angelfish, Toi is especially friendly and it follows me around.