Its an odd thing for me sharing a birthday with the year. I have long taken it for granted, but it occured to me this morning that while I am anticipating my next birthday, the old year is dying out for good. How odd is that? Slightly morbid too.
I’m starting this year out tired hoping thats not a precedent for the whole year. I feel odd- not older, just tired. I’m only 23, but I’ve been such an old lady all my life that I even think of my physical age as just a baby.
We celebrated 2008’s last rights with a ritual movie watching. This year it was Stardust and I have to say it was quite enjoyable. We switched gears just in time to watch Dick Clark start the final countdown. I was amazed at how old he’s gotten, but then again everyone ages even the Hollywood types. My mom called from Washington, then my baby brother texted me from home and finally the older one called from a party with his friends and girlfriend in California. It was so very nice- a wonderful way to start my birthday. We won’t be celebrating today because of the whole still broke from Christmas, all our bills are due on the first, pay day is tomorrow thing, but probably tomorrow or Saturday night instead which is okay. I’ve gotten to the point where birthdays aren’t quite as big a deal as they used to be.
I’m sorry if this is not the happy birthday post you all would expect from me, but its hard to get excited about something when no one else is even when its your own birthday. Yesterday I found out that my MIL thought I would be 25, 2 years older than Jarell, rather than 23, 4 months older than him and not till the 5th. Could explain why she is so often opposed to me and him I guess. No one else really knew when my birthday was because I’m the one that keeps track of all that stuff and makes sure that everyone else knows and remembers to say something. What do you do when you’re the planner in the family? I don’t want to plan it myself because that feels forced and boring, but the other option is to be forgotten. Oh well thats life. At least I don’t have kids yet. I’ll try and come back later with some funny pictures and a story but for now Spore is my destiny and its calling me.